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just finished watching it.
not too bad actually.
quite nice.
i would definitely watch it again!
ending was abrupt but cool!

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SUPER UNLUCKY TODAY!

first,jun de vomited on my pants
second, got lost in city hall interchange, missed train
third, got scolded by customer
fourth,something i didn't thought of happening was going to HAPPEN!
fifth, MY SHOW HAVEN'T COME OUT!

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FUN!
FUN!
FUN!

not tiring at all.
the pay is not alot!
if you think it is!

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3 MORE PAPERS TO GO!
might have to retake next year.
but thats next year stuff to worry!

AUGUST RUSH WAS GREAT!
must have a little faith.
and they did find each other!
but how can he be 17 in real life?
he looks so young!

im gonna start my printing services again after Os ALI!
i got alot to print!
gonna get a book and fill them with all the pictures!

looked at all the pictures
feeling was a bit weird
nostalgic?
deja vu?

no matter what picture is it
be it a good or bad memory
its a part of me
what matters is now
anticipate the future
hope its a good one.

yan da feng
irritating face
but cute at the same time
thats annoying!

i think there are more than 10
i will be counting!

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OMG!you are really really nice.
i didn't expect that from you.
you can relate yourself so well even though we are not close to you.
i might really like you again.
the feeling tingles in my mind.
:DDDDDD

its quite unbelievable and no wonder there was silence for one minute.
you really are a keeper and i bet no one will ever find out unless you tell them.
but its a freaking monkey,it really is.
you can't get angry if what i said comes true.
what will happen,will happen.
what will not, will just not.

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NEXT WEEK IS MY PRACTICAL!

let bygones be bygones.
is it easier said than done?
i think so.

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my answer is a definite NO!

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didn't go to school both yesterday and today.
had some family matters to settle.

and went to cousin's wedding yesterday.
not too bad,saw many people,whom i do not know.
food was awesome, no wonder it was called fine dining.
the wedding was quite impressive,very well-planned and organised.
it felt like chinese new year. seeing all my relatives.
but had to sit at different tables.

it felt like reunion and all my cousins all seem to have grown up.
really weird and they couldn't recognise me because of what i wore.
we all had matured and everytime we look back on our childhood days, its really funny.
the lame jokes we crack and the stupid stuff we do.

i guess 20 days to Os is frightening, but to me, probably some screw has came loose and im still as calm as ever.
spooky.

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only a few months has passed and many things happened.
perhaps it was progressing gradually that i didn't realise up till recently.
i suppose it always happens when i ask that question, and the answer is it won't happen la.
and yet,right now, it happened.
surprising isn't it?

guess mum having a hard time.with all the family problems.
sometimes my family isn't what it actually is on the surface of things.
it might look very good on the outside but its not in the inside.
its quite complicated and i do wonder why am i in such a situation.
i always thought such stuff only happen in drama serials and yet im experiencing it.
probably i was young then and was ignorant about it.
but now, everything came to light.
being 16 certainly isn't easy for me.
things do happen and i know it happens for a reason.

i do not want to be growing up in such manner.
it sucks.
we study for the sake of studying.
so much so for not liking it,
but it is necessary.
at one stage of our life we will actually miss this times.
the innocence we once had.
the fun we used to enjoy.

BUT STILL, I MUST AND WILL ENDURE!

SPARE A THOUGHT FOR MUM!
just go because tongues will wag and that will just pile up even more problems.
and the next generation might end up suffering.
ITS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?

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should i have something for the sake of having it?
or should it be having something because i really want it.


you can laugh all you want.
i don't give a damn.
bleh.

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i do not want to be reminded about it again.
i have gotten over IT!
it was a rough patch and i have successfully overcome it.

and Os.really
less than a month.
i will do it!

a ruined friendship that cannot be restored?
i guess so.

looking forward after Os.
its really very fast.

and please,stop bombarding me with questions.
i  don't feel like answering them.
i know its concern but sometimes when my mood is on the swing,
i just can't  take it.
makes me feel very frustrated!

but, i know you all care for me.
THANKS!

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dont ask me what will i be wearing or whatsoever.
its a secret!
shhhhh!
just wait for that day to arrive.

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OMG!OMG! my cousin's wedding is going to be held at St Regis!
remembered what alim told me!
some 5 or 6 stars hotel!
must be super expensive!
went to see the website. the ballroom can hold up to 1000 people.
and its Singapore one and only don't know what thing!

30th Sept!
if i have to go, i wonder what my mother will make me wear!
THAT PLACE IS LIKE SO GRAND!
OMG!

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WARNING: THIS WILL BE LONG!

the past few days really happened alot of stuff.
6 days.
at first i was thinking of really making full use of the holidays and start preparing.
but no one expected such things to happen.
the death of my  great grandmother.
our 5th generation
saw alot of relatives, many is my first time seeing them
didn't know my mum had so many cousins
like 100 over people went
i even thought one of them could be my friend.
realised that there are many sec fours and they were like mugging in the funeral
kinda disrespectful though, but  i  guess its alright
was told to map out the family tree and they call me the MS WHY!
i ask too many questions! haha.

got to know alot of conflicts and i thought WWIII was gonna happen
quite alot of tension.
i think my family stories can be film into a hongkong drama serial
super interesting.

had to travel to toa payoh everyday.
im not gonna grumble, it was all for a reason
must pay respects to her,she is the oldest in our family.

on a side note, my relatives think im primary six,
how funny.

went to celebrate nicole lee birthday at her house, saw marc jacobs.
he looks old!
watched kungfu panda and step up 2 at her house.
then later, went orchard with some friends, SORRY FOR BEING SO LATE!
aliens in the attic was very hilarious.i laughed until my stomach pain
seriously funny and seeing the person beside me, one very focuses, one furiously gobbling down food
watching movie with them, to be truthful, quite fun actually

back to the funeral, there is three cousins, brothers and their names all start with the letter  J
joseph,jeremy and jenson
we thought their parents' names also start with J but the reason for the kids name was because either the dad or mum like JOKER!
when i heard that, i stoned for a while!
HAHAHAH!

back to study.
history and math.
GO FOR IT!

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OMG OMG!
HJ is down with swine flu!
pray he gets well soon..

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i interpreted something wrongly.
what's happening on the surface might not be what is really happening.
might be a scheme or a trick.
and i fell for it.
but why?
and who?

two months and i will care all about myself.
that is what i need.
relationships that turned sour.
it is irreversible.
so what happened has happened.
i can't regret it and i could only say im sorry.
do not judge a book by its cover.
look beyond the surface.
use reliability skills.
AWACO!

nobody wants anything from you.
i should have seen it coming.

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still got tuition tomorrow.
damn it.
i haven't do my homework.
and im not studying.
freak!

really dead.

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I WANT TO GO TO ANDORRA!
DENMARK!
ENGLAND!

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IM TOTALLY AMAZED!
HE CAN SING CHINESE SONGS SO WELL DESPITE BEING  A CAUCASIAN!
OMG! I REALLY TAKE MY HAT OFF HIM!
AWESOME!
THUMBS UP!

im speechless.
damn good!

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HAHAHAHAHA.
THANK GOD ITS JUST A  PLAYER AND NOT CAPTAIN!
the rest are more or less the same though.
a sigh of relief.

i didn't fall for that trap.
thank god!
there's no drought in singapore!